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My mac (laptop) may be completely dead. When it starts up, instead of starting, it just loads a flashing ?. I'm scared that it might be completely dead, which will suck since I haven't backed up in forever =| Hopefully it's not. I'm going to see the Genius Bar (the Mac help guys) today in about an hour, so hopefully they'll know what to do. Hopefully the computer isn't 100% dead. That would suck far too much.
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I actually checked my LJ friends page.

Most of the page is either bad stuff or a meme. A meme I think is actually pretty cool, but still.

And here I am with good news and haven't spouted it yet.

I try before I sleep but I want to finish what I'm working on first. Someone hit me with a hammer if I don't by the end of tomorrow.
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Why do I only use this for bad news lately?

I should really stop doing that and try to post more regularly about cool stuff. Well, you'll get that for a small part of this post.

So... WoW. In WoW, you can aquire what I believe to be a fairly cool item: reigns to summon a netherdrake mount. A netherdrake is a cool looking dragon that you can fly on in Outland in WoW. Now, if you know anything about me, you know I like dragons. You also know I enjoy WoW. So this was something I wanted.

Now, a few facts about the Netherdrake. It takes a lot of time and effort to get. You have to do several quests and spend several hours accross multiple days to get it. Also, it is no different from a normal epic flying mount (epic flyiers are just faster than normal fliers) other than appearance. Another also is that the drake can only be used in Outland (the expansion continent) and only outdoors, so where it can be used is fairly limited. It's only real use is it allows you to get from place to place much quicker than if you walked.

So, really, the Netherdrake doesn't really do anything for you that you can't get otherwise. It is just cool. Not to mention the quests you do to get it give you some decent cash (though you do tend to die a decent amount, which will off set that by a small amount). So yes, in reality, the drake means nothing.

Do I care? No! I think the drake is awesome! I think it looks awesome, I think flying on one is awesome, and I think BONDING WITH ONE is freaking awesome! So yes, this is a cool thing for me! Is it practical? No. Is it beneficial? No more so than your previous mount. Do I care? Not one bit! The dragon looks cool and it makes me happy to have one, so I'm pretty content!

Shortly before actually getting to purchase one, I proclaimed in the IRC channel I'm most active in that I acquired one since everyone was inactive and by the time they actually read it, I would likely have one since all I needed to do was talk to two people to get it. I guess I was partially bragging and partially just going "Hey guys! I got something cool and want to share this knowledge with you =D"

See where this is going yet?

Someone came back from being inactive and started spewing out the minuses to acquiring the drake. I told him I didn't care. It made me happy, so I was fine with it. Yet he kept going. And going. And going... and got me angry.

My inability to hold in my anger is, unfortunately, a major weakness of mine. Were I as cool headed as others I know, I could have kept up my original response of "so?" indefinately, yet, I am sorry to admit, I did not. I started arguing back. Fairly calmly at first, but I'm afraid I was a little more vicious than I should have been near the end. The point wasn't that the dragon was a waste of time, can't do anything that I couldn't do previously, and may or may not look "graceful." THe point was I was excited, got something I wanted to get and put effort into, and was having a good time.

Had he just expressed his opinion, I would have been fine with it. I mean, he is entitled to his opinion! I don't mind him having it OR expressing it. I DO mind him killing my buzz and constantly degrading what I thought was just cool. That's all I think it is. That's all I ever WILL think it is. It is something I, personally, enjoy having and enjoyed getting. Everything he said may have been true, and quite possibly, some of it affected me simply because it was true. I think what really affected me, though, was the fact that he just saw the negative and seemed to feel the need to bring me down. I do not think this was his intention, yet it was still both rude and hurtful. I do appologize for fighting with him, I'd much rather have not! All I wanted was to proclaim I got something I found cool! Whether you find it cool or not is irrelevant, it was how he expressed it that irked me. If you think it's cool, congratulate me! If you don't, feel free to express your opinion briefly and not continue to drone on about it! Had he dropped it after his 11th line, I probably wouldn't be so frustrated. Up until then, he was just pointing out what he felt to be why the dragon was not worth acquiring. I can respect this! I do think he handled it poorly, but I can respect this. After his 11th line, though, he was just kind of driving the point into the ground. Oh, and being sarcastic, and not in the harmless way, I'm afraid.

I would copy the conversation to LJ, but I have been told the last time I did something like that that this is rude and I should not do it, so I won't. I think it would be a good idea since it would allow you people to get your own opinion, perhaps I am in the wrong and handled it poorly! You just get to hear my side. I don't think that's the best idea, really, but I guess I'm accepting it. I will admit near the end I got rather carried away and did, in fact, resprt to name calling. Very weak name calling, but I was angry and not thinking clearly.

What I should have done was just dropped it. I had many, MANY opportunities to do so, but, as I stated, I was angry that he just saw the bad. I guess it irks me even more that I agreed with just about everything he said, yet he still seemed to think he needed to explain why it wasn't a worthwhile investment of my time. I think that a) if I had fun doing it and b) I enjoy the end result that it was worthwhile. Did I have fun doing it? Mostly. It got repetitive and I stopped attempting to acquire it for a few months (yes, months). Do I enjoy the end product? HECK YEAH.

As a final point I think a decent parallel that went RIGHT can be found here, as, once again, Greg is me. While the TV show probably has no real entertainment value, Greg enjoys it! And good for him! Liz may think it's kind of silly and or stupid as I infer from her question, but that doesn't stop Greg! And while, Liz is kind of skeptical, but I don't think she's actually going to push the point past the original question. I think this is how the situation should have been handled. Or closerr to it, at least.

Again, I want to appologize for my involvement in this and wish it never happened. I do think he was in the wrong, and I do think I handled it well at first. I also think I made a grievous error near the end and wish I hadn't as the fight ended in bad blood, which kind of sucks. I'd like to think that he's calmed down by now (it's been half an hour), but I really doubt it since he didn't actually seem to get angry... just bitter, and one doesn't calm down from being bitter, does one? Doesn't seem like something you can calm down from.

I think I went on too long... I guess that makes me a hypocrite. Especially since I'm being kinda repetitive. Sigh. Maybe tomorrow I'll try and mention something good for once? Well, something unmarked with badness.

In other news... I got a netherdrake in WoW today =D I'm quite proud of him. He's blue =D
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So, uh... yeah!

I've been kinda... attention whorey lately, haven't I, world? I should stop =\

Please feel free to point this out to me if I seem to be overly attention whorey and do not recognize it. Wait... if the best way to deal with an attention whore is to ignore him, then... Well, crap... Umm... Just kick me in the head, then!
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I decided to use it earlier tonight...


I'm taking it in for repairs tomorrow.


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BEHOLD! The monster post!

That's right, monster post. This is 18.33 pages long, 11,007 words long (counting the “lj-cut text” stuff, so it won’t come out exact if you just copy/paste), a whopping 45,958 characters long (not counting spaces. 57,714 counting them!), 125 paragraphs, and a mighty 842 lines! All these figures count these opening couple of paragraphs as well.

The point of this monster post is to highlight nifty events from up to 3 months or more ago. So, yeah. MONSTER post. It really should have been posted a log time ago, but it wasn’t, so I’m correcting that. In almost 19 pages. Woah! Anyway, let’s get started.

Meeting Haplo and Fusi =OCollapse )

OkageCollapse )

X-mas swag.Collapse )

California success and failure.Collapse )

World of WarcraftCollapse )

Battleforge Games.Collapse )

Violinist of HamelinCollapse )

SoraCollapse )

And…. That’s it! And I was right. I didn’t make it to page 20. This is the very beginning of 19 right here. Oh well. Hope you enjoyed those EIGHTEEN PAGES OF RECAPPING. This took me awhile to write. Over a week, since I kept doing other things in between. Thank you for your patience, especially if you read the whole thing. That’s it. Til next time.

-A very tired from writing Bugle.
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So, I've been mopey most of the day and not very talkative. I think I took the outburst earlier too seriously.

I did go back, but left soon after, in an idling fashion, as I hadn't slept in 22 hours since my body forgot to sleep, which was quite odd, and I was feeling braindead. I think I stayed up for another hour before actually sleeping. When I got up, I went back into #r-k, but not #xkcd, as I didn't feel like dealing with it. And then soon I left #r-k and started doing other things because I felt untalky. And I still do, really. Meh.

So, yeah, today sucked =/
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Okay. For the third time, I joined #xkcd today. Because, in theory, I should like it there. The first two times I left because either there was too much activity or too little, both of which suck for me.

Today I left for a different reason, though I intend to go back later. After I cool down. I left because I was confused. Very confused. Because I was being yelled at for a reason I didn't understand and then not getting an explanation when I expressed my confusion.

I think I know what happened now, but, still, it's disheartening. Guitar Hero was mentioned, and I mentioned how it was the game that everyone talks about that I have no interest in, which I don't. As usual, the other party mentioned that I would love it when I tried it, and, again as usual, I said I doubted I would. It's entirely possible I will, I don't know, but, from what I can tell, I wouldn't. I won't know, however, until I try, and I know this.

So someone else, who knows me from elsewhere, mentioned that I already decided I wouldn't like it, so I won't. I commented that it was a stupid argument, which is in this case as it's not true. Yes, people will hate things simply for no other reason than they will hate things, but I don't think that applies here as a) I am aware I need to try it before judging and b) I don't hate it. So the person who mentioned that said that's why she said I wouldn't. And that confused me, because it seemed like she was agreeing with my contradiction to her statement. WHich, um, doesn't make sense.

I was then told that I suck at arguing on the internet. This is true, and I gave an explanation: I cannot argue with anyone smarter than me as they will confuse me and win. This is also true as they will usually bring up some point and confuse me and I will lose the argument as I end up no longer knowing what I'm talking about. This is a fact and was not related to my prior self bashing (Before this argument). Unfortunately, she got angry, started yelling at me (confusing me more as I didn't know what she was talking about until after I quit), and then started ignoring me after I expressed confusion. I think she didn't believe I was confused. Either that, or didn't want to deal with me anymore. I believe her exact words were "You cannot believe you have no part in that." Or something. At the time, I didn't understand at all, but it's pretty clear now.

So, yeah. I got massively confused, felt massively out of place (I was feeling mildly out of place earlier as the people there are far geekier than I and often discuss things that do not and will not make sense to me as I make little to no effort to actually understand them as I do not honestly CARE to, which I have SAID on a few occasions. I'm sorry, I am not a technical person and I do not really care to become one. The whole thing confuses me and, more importantly, bores me. I do not want to learn how to understand something that bores me, okay?), and finally decided I should leave. So, I did. I expected something to happen after that, but it didn't. So, yeah. Then I came and made this since I am not happy at all and needed to vent. I'm sorry I got confused and I'm sorry I angered you, but, um, yeah. I did. Too late to undo that now.

I'll probably go back... but, again, I'll probably feel massively out of place. If I leave again because of that, I probably won't go back. Which is a shame, really, as I do like the 2 people I know who hang out there, and it seems to be their primary haunt now. But... if I feel massively out of place all the time... I'm just not going to deal with it. I think that's the safest way to deal with it.
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Don't be alarmed

But there's a chance I won't be using the computer mcuh in the near future. I won't say why. Private matters. If I'm not on IRC/AIM later this evening, assume I'm gone for awhile.

If I am gone, say good bye for me to those people who don't read this (which is other IRCers, really). I'll try to be back ASAP, but who knows?